Friday, August 20, 2010


OK, so I know its been MONTHS since I last posted and I have no excuse....other then I started to think blogging was bad for me. I know, right, fucked. Since when is an outlet for thoughts and emotions "bad"? But that show took over my life and my time and I had to make a choice. During the shoot, do I focus on my personal quest for self destruction, thinness at any cost....or do I stop being a fucking pussy and just dive in head first to see where it all takes me. So I made the conscious choice to stop posting. and I'm sorry. I really have missed you guys. It's been empty. That's the only word I have for it...empty. I've been occupying someone else's mind though, so that made it a lot easier. I play a pretty complex chick in this show, and being in her head was hard a lot of the time. Painful. Usually there isn't a character out there who's more difficult to play then me. But this one was tough. Needless to say, it went well, I had an amazing time and I think I really grew as an artist. Hopefully you'll all see me this fall without knowing its me :)
I have to apologize, I know, for deserting everyone. I wish I could say it won't happen again but my new resolution is to not make gargantuan claims I can't follow through on. I do it too much as it is. I'll write when I can. I am very sorry for those of you who worried though! I know there's a lot of you out there, and I hope I didn't cause you too much stress. I'll understand if you want to stop reading.
I didnt get THAT many comments while I was gone, so I don't think there are too many of you to address. But there's one I ought to nip in the butttttt. Miss, you're wrong :) but not so far off.
missed you ladies! I WILL try to write again soon. oh, before I forget- weight 110! not so bad. I'm starting to not hate myself at 110 which I feel is significant progress. And I maintained it through the entire shoot. We'll see how I look on screen :)


  1. Hmph.

    It's not even like I can be angry.

    I've just missed you a fuck of a lot.

  2. I missed you as well, and am so glad you're back!

  3. I'm so glad you're back!!! Your blog is one of my favorites, so I was sad/worried to see you gone, but figured it was due to work. Glad you're doing well!!


  4. Yaaaay!!! You're back!!! I'm glad you're doing ok and had the opportunity to take a break from your mind and jump into someone else's! =)

  5. Oh I wish I could see the show, it must be on by now!! Well I don't live in the US so...
    I missed you. Hell, I still miss you.

    110 is great!


  6. Hello! I love your blog. You're such a good writer, not all fussy and sentimental. I hope you post again soon.

  7. I am going to take a huge gander and say she is one of the girls from Pretty Little Liars.